OT: The man who brought me stories

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Today is my father’s birthday. If he were still alive, he would be 92 years old.  He’s been gone more than nine years, but I still think about him everyday. When the trees are bare in winter I can see the grey slate roof and the red brick chimneys of the farmhouse where I grew up in the little valley below us.

It will likely surprise no one who knows me very well that I often carry on imaginary conversations in my head with my dad. If I can do it with beloved fictional characters, I can certainly do it with the man whose genetic material I carry.  He loved to tell stories.

Stories about his school days at Mt. Zion and the time the schoolhouse burned to the ground; stories about the sister who dyed her hair to match her car, about his days as a military policeman at a German POW camp and the time he and his sergeant had to go drag WW I hero Alvin York’s son out from under the house when he went AWOL. We heard some of them so many times we could have probably recited them in our sleep.  And then out of the blue he’d come up with one we’d never heard before. Who knew my dad had taken flight lessons and even soloed when he came back home after WW II?

Then came the day of The Accident. Being run down by your much-loved John Deere tractor and having your leg ripped open by a bush hog implement doesn’t do a senior citizen a lot of good.  I remember kneeling at his side, teasing him about the circumstances while trying to keep him conscious as he lay there on the ground, blood-soaked towels around his leg.

“You would go and get run over by your very favorite tractor, wouldn’t you? Nothing runs like a Deere. Nothing runs over you like a Deere?” He gave me a woozy smile and started reciting all the John Deere memorabilia he owned, from signs to mugs to Christmas ornaments. It kept him awake. It kept me from squawling.

Being run over  turned out to be a blessing heavily disguised.  His surgeon, concerned Daddy might have suffered internal injuries, ordered additional tests and it was discovered my dad had an abdominal aortic aneurysm the size of a grapefruit. The proverbial ticking time bomb.

Were it not for the CAT scan following the tractor incident, we would never have known about the aneurysm. And one day he would have simply dropped dead; barring an autopsy, we’d have never known why. For much of the remaining two years of his life, Daddy loved telling the story of the John Deere run amuck.

When his leg healed enough he had surgery to remove the aneurysm. He reacted badly to medication he was given. How badly? Let me just say there are some things you do not want to ever see. Your father in a straitjacket is one of them. He was never quite the same afterwards. We think he may have suffered some light strokes in the aftermath of it all.

Two years later came the night he began talking about “bent fences” over and over again. He’d suffered a major stroke. He wasn’t paralyzed anywhere and his speech wasn’t slurred. But a chunk of his brain had been blown out.  The condition is called vascular dementia.  It’s like a sudden leap into Alzheimer’s.  His memory was scrambled, his judgment and reasoning affected.

My father’s mind was badly fractured and I so wanted to put it back together for him.  But I could not. No one could.

I became “Lady.” Benny, the only one physically able to really handle him at times, was “Sheriff.” My mother was known as “That Woman.”

Some days he was convinced the front yard was full of frogs. I did not argue with him. Frogs were harmless, after all.  Later, when he was in the nursing home we received a call in the middle of the night that he was extremely agitated and we needed to come and calm him down. He believed someone had shot him. When he pointed to the “wound” and told me with huge tears in his eyes how much it hurt, the hallucination wasn’t harmless and amusing; it was heartbreaking.

While we were still able to keep him at home, we’d watch Lawrence Welk and sing songs while he sat on the toilet. He took an interminably long time as he carefully folded his tissue as if making some origami bird. He might not be able to remember our names, but he could recall “She’ll Be Comin’ Round the Mountain” and other tunes. We talked about the old days. The familiar was comforting for him and for us.

He had his moments of lucidity. “It’s raining,” he announced. “And how do you know that, Joe?” Benny queried in a kind tone. “Hell, I just looked out the window,” Daddy replied, sounding just like his old self.  We laughed. It felt good to laugh.

When he was trying to think things through, and you could see him struggling, you wanted to be able to climb into his brain and help him out. “I just can’t remember–nothin’ no more,” he said one night, shaking his head in frustration.  His favorite stories and well-worn jokes were not always retrievable.

Daddy was always proud of the work I did for the newspaper. There were several of my columns which he carefully cut out and folded and tucked into his wallet to share with friends and acquaintances or to simply re-read when the urge struck him. I think it tickled him to think of his daughter carrying on his storytelling tradition, only with the written word instead of the spoken.

In the last months of his life, Daddy became bedridden  and lost the power of speech. My raconteur father was forced into silence.

But I kept talking. Each time I visited, I would share the well wishes of those I had seen, catch him up on the community news, tell him about interviews and assignments I had done.  I was not sure how much he understand in those last months, but I knew it was important that I kept talking, kept the conversation going, kept telling the stories.

And today I still keep talking. I keep telling the stories. Somehow, I know it is important.

Happy Birthday, Daddy. And thank you for the stories.  Your three girls love you and miss you very much.

Joe’s girls. My mother, two older sisters and me on vacation in Silver Springs, Fla. Daddy is behind the Kodak Brownie box camera.

About fedoralady

I'm an LA native--Lower Alabama, that is. My husband of more than 30 years and I live here on a portion of my family's former farm with two gorgeous calicos and a handsome GSD mix. My background is art education, and over the years I've been a teacher, department store photographer, sales associate and a journalist. My husband, his business partner and I have Pecan Ridge Productions, a video production company, for which I shoot & edit video and stills and manage marketing. I also still write part-time for the local paper. I love movies, music, art, photography and books, and my tastes in all of them are eclectic.

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  1. Such wonderful memories of a much loved parent, Angie. I’m sure he’d be very proud of all your accomplishments if he were still around.

    • Thanks, hon. I cried myself soggy through the whole thing–Benny is going to get home and wonder what the heck is up!–but it was important to me that I wrote this. As I said, I need to keep telling stories.

      • Stories help us make sense of life. Thanks for telling this one, for the good tears, and for having the guts to be there for your father.

        • As hard as it all was–and it was just devastating at times–I am really glad we were living here. You know Benny was actually unemployed during that time and it was a blessing because there is no way Daddy could have stayed at home as long as he did after that stroke if Benny hadn’t been available. He had the physical strength and, as he said, “It’s easier for me, Ang, because he isn’t my dad.” It would have killed my mother from the stress of it all if she’d tried to cope by herself.

            • And he had to turn around and more or less do the same for his parents, as his brothers did not live locally. He and I were the only children living close to our respective parents. I think all of this just cemented us closer together. He is a dear, dear man.

  2. Happy birthday, Mr. Angie’s Father! Your little girl, she’s done good!

    Lovely tribute to your Daddy, Angie. He’s still proud of you, showing all those around him those clippings still carefully folded in his wallet. And you can bet he’s regaling the heavens with his wonderful stories.

    *hugs*

    • Thank you, Zan. I like to think of all our parents, mine and Benny’s, together again, talking and laughing and remembering together. They always thought so much of each other. The Longs loved me like a daughter, and my parents adored Benny.

  3. Thanks for sharing your memories of you beloved Daddy. I’m definitely “Daddy’s Little Girl” at 46. Dad’s in relatively good health for 75. However, whenever I can, I head up to Western PA to see my family to make more memories. Hold onto those memories and continue to talk to your Daddy. I believe he’s out there listening and so very proud of his little girl.

  4. You were a very caring daughter Angie and I love reading your stories and memories.
    BTW did Americans keep French pronunciation for the word “raconteur” ?

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